Monday, January 24, 2011


I read one of your recent posts and it sort of bothered me-- the part about never leaving your hometown and being defined by the people you grew up with. I know it wasn't a jab at me or anything, but it was still upsetting.

Did I want to stay here? No. I, like you, had dreams too. They did not involve living at home, commuting to RIC, and working at Stop & Shop for 5+ years. This lifestyle was, of course, a choice. I won't deny that. But you also have to remember that I didn't/don't have the same advantages you did/do. Your financial situation is likely far better than my own. You were raised in a household where art was encouraged, not suppressed. You have two incredibly happy, supportive parents. My life could have been a lot worse, but it wasn't yours, either. For mostly financial reasons--I'll admit I was terrified, too--I've ended up here. And no, I haven't moved far away or studied abroad. My parents aren't footing the bill for a room in an expensive school in the city. But if you think that means I haven't grown intellectually, mentally, or emotionally, you're wrong.

And if you think that means I'll never get out of here, you're absolutely wrong. Some of us just have to take a different path.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Round up

What I like about today:
-I have fuzzy pajamas
-I have not left my bed since I woke up
-I'm becoming the most skilled sudokuist ever

What I don't like about today:
-I have to go to work
-I'm hungry
-I have frozen feet
-I got paid today...check = $35.42
-I have a lip zit that will not vacate the premises
-I miss my boyfriend

Monday, January 17, 2011

Last night

We tend to live in the small world we've created for ourselves. I think it's just what happens in relationships, and that's OK. But last night I saw your eyes light up as you told stories about people and places from the past. I felt like I did when we first met--you were so cute and interesting and funny (not that I don't always think so). I'm glad it happened, and I'm glad we both realized it happened. I think it's something we needed to uncover. I know I sometimes feel like I've lost myself, so I can only imagine how you must feel. There is so much we haven't experienced together. We're in the habit of staying in and staring at each other in bed (which isn't a bad thing, of course), but there's so much I want to do and see with you. It's like...somewhere along the line we both got the idea that we had to morph into this weird robot with 5 settings in order to please the other (I think more so on your end), but that really isn't the case. I hope you don't think it is. I don't think we'll ever stop meep mopping around, but I do think it would be beneficial to step outside of that comfort zone and get to know the other beyond "us." I think that's what I mean when I say "But Jared, I don't even know you!"

Besides, that's the version of you I first fell in love with.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Snapshot Sunday

I woke up this morning feeling the need to travel somewhere I haven't been in a while. Dylan came over and we ended up in Wickford.

Everything there is so quaint! I love this house. Especially the colors.

Also, this bridge is really cute.

After a while we ended up back home.

I made us the most delicious quesadillas: black beans, bbq chicken, avocado, scallions, and monterey jack.

Then I remembered that it's been 5 days since my sea monkey eggs hatched, so it was time to feed them!

This brought me much joy.

Then I went to work, where I made Jess a veggie/fruit penis sculpture. Someone built her one at her coffee shop job this morning, so she wrote a post on Facebook speculating that there probably wouldn't be a veggie penis at her "other" job. WRONG!

Then I went to buy everyone coffees except I had to go to Honeydew AND Dunkin. By the time I got to Dunkin I was so flustered that I couldn't speak. I meant to ask for a cinnamon raisin bagel twist but instead asked "can I have a cinnamon bagon raisil twist?" The woman taking my order promptly replied "sure!" but I was still mortified, haha.

I leave you with this video of my sea monkey obsession/Dylan being a lunatic.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Remember when?

Jared: because i just remember how long it took you to put your boots on because you were afraid of beach worms and then we stood outside in the rain and the surf for far too long. and then came back into the car and shivered and sang songs on the radio. and it was so great.

I love everything we've ever done.